Where do needs end and wants begin? What comes first. With limited means, needs take over. What happens when needs are beyond your means? How does one make ends meet? Life seems difficult in these moments.
In such moments what explains your drive, how do you keep going?
Sometimes life feels like the Bombay local. Especially the super fast ones that bound through at break neck speed. I don’t know how else to explain the pace of life these days. Even though you get to your destination fast enough, you don’t seem to be arriving. It’s just one stop after the next. a never ending cycle. A hamster wheel of life. Maybe a treadmill, sounds more respectful.
The night doesn’t seem as desultory on the fast local. The train ensures that you don’t spend all of the night outside and you go and enjoy a peaceful time at home. If only peace and silence awaits you at home. If not then it merely brings you closer to the chaos that you have been trying to escape. I am not sure how much more I can go on without silence. But hey what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
In the end all of us seek peace. Needs or wants, peace is a common denominator. Peace unites us all. But do we want peace or do we need peace? It doesn’t matter. Peace is elusive, peace is hard. Peace is desirable, peace is preferred. Just like previous work experience in a job description. But no one can really tell what it takes to get to a peaceful stage.
Maybe these questions will help clear the fog. Until then it is time to sleep on grass at Oval Maidan and ponder over the answers to these questions.